y dont i eve know what 2 say 2 him anymore??we used 2 allways talk..n now that i've told him how i really feel all i can do is freeze.. i i/med him..n idk..i jus completley froze..so i started 2 say that he didnt want2 listen 2 me bore him..so i told him that he didnt have 2 listen 2 me..that he could just go listen 2 his 5 year old sis talk about nails..n he laughed..but i said..yea..well now..i jus feel so odd..im srry..i g2g..i didnt know what 2 say..i no he doesnt really like me..he was jus saying he'd b my valentine because i've known him 4ever...im jus soo sick of all of this boy crap..y cant guys ever realize that the best things in life arent allways the popular girls...and mike..hes not like that..he jus..doesnt like me i guess..ohh man..i hate this..i really jus cant explain what i fell for this boy..i've liked him since 5th grade...and i never told any1..cause he was jus so special 2 me...i thought that if i didnt tell any1..things would work out better...but nothing ever works out better for me latley...life jus doesnt want 2 cooperate..well im sick of it..mike..i hope you know..that you were my first valentine..and im soo happy you were..and i wish you could b my first everything..but i guess things jus dont work out the way we want them 2...so i jus need 2 love you in the back of my head...always and forever..and figure out if any1 could b as special 2 me as you are...i dont know if ill ever find that..and if you could read this...i know you might realize how special you really are..but i doubt you will..and i could never jus tell you 2 go read this..cause that would b 2 easy...well this is getting long..so i think i must stope here.