You have no idea how happy it made me to just have u here. It was like u were in my world, and understood it. thank you. and im sorry you couldnt get the brown pants! i dont know wut to think about that situation anymore. i was glad i stood up for myself. and i know i made the right choice...but theres a part of me that still wants to believe she does care, and wants to change. but who am i kidding? i have always meant nothing to her. i adore him. i adore him because i shouldnt, i adore him because i cant have him. and i hate myself for it. i hate how i have to be around him. whats wrong with me? i dont get it...is he really wut i see? or do i see simply because i want to see that in SOMEONE. yeah if only i could be completly fun and original. or wutever it is he is looking for. but since im not...i need to deal. but sometimes its jsut too hard.