::dont be sad friend, this is not the end:: today was one of a many spledid days...to have two great days in a row makes me want to change my name to April and always wear pink, even pink ribbon in my hair. always. this death cab for cutie CD is eargasmic ...thats right, eargasmic. Tomorrow will be the day i approach cute boy in my psychology class that we will call "boy with pants" cuz he wears these pants that are like magnets to me or something. Hes not exactly a laguna beach boy, but the closest thing to it at Ridgewater and i would love to get him drunk so he wouldnt have to talk but i could just sit and stare at him. I talked to britta today about haing a lover who you wouldnt have to love and that thought appealed quite nice to me, and then i realized that ive had em all along. My night class ended up being canceled tonight so i had to go to church. Seeing jesse baker will always make me feel awkward and uncomfortable. He sang and played guitar while jeaninne played the cello or wutever that large string instrument is. Then something really weird happened at the end of the service, kelli came up to me (kelli being the wife of jon, the pastor) and like took my hand and started praying for me (?) maybe god told her i needed prayer...i dunno the reason why but she did and she kept asking god to bless me with new friends, and to ease my anxiety over this new year approaching and i just stood there like a statue and tried not to laugh because 1) there is nothing wrong with the friends i have, few as they may be 2) im not worried or anxious or nervous about my future so she kept yakking about those topics and then she paused for a brief moment and began to ask god for something that wouldnt be half bad...she said something like "jesus, may you place a person in marisabels life to love her in a way she never thought possible." and yeah i think that would be nice to happen...so we will see if god or the powers that be will send me someone (prefferably a boy) to love,adore, admire, adulate, canonize, care for, cherish, choose, deify, delight in, dote on,exalt, fall for, fancy, flip over, glorify, go for,hold dear, hold high, idolize, like, long for, prefer... ME. then that would be great, i will take any of the above, cuz theyre just diffrent names for the same thing and it would make me happy...probably. ciao, amor.