::this is the worst day of my life:: last night i could not sleep, i couldnt the night before either. My jaw is sore, along with my teeth. My muscles ache all over. I feel tired, tired in a way that i have never felt before. My body is heavy, my heart rate is slower than usual and i cant seem to sit still. My head steadily thumps with thoughts of anger, despair, and disbelief. My pillow that once conformed to my body felt like a block of wood last night, and my eyes that i could once see the world out of were tired and fluttered to focus. Everthing i saw was still a blur in spite of their strain. At about 5:30 i fell asleep only to wake up several hours later, there was an awful ringing in my head and i couldnt get it to stop. I was very happy to see the storm raging about outside, mimcking the thunder and rain inside my mind. i drove to school feeling like a zombie. Lost and completly empty. I drove 65 around the infamous curves of county road 8, and i knew that i didnt give a shit if i rolled right into the ditch. Maybe thats what i was aiming for. I missed btw. Now its 12:45 and the one thing i wanted to get accomplished today will not get done because it seems i have lost both of my english books making it impossible to read out of them. So i will leave now and sleep and sleep and sleep and hopefully, dream too. repression: He raped me in the chalet lines It was a party, it was going fine With the boys from the amusement park A few were idiots, they were a really good laugh I had just said no for the final time Although it's last month it's like yesterday I missed my time, I don't think I could stand To take the test, I'm feeling sick Fuck this, I've felt like this for a week I'd put a knife right into his eyes My friend can't see She asks me why I don't Tell the law Oh what's the fucking point at all?