today was an ok day.....i talked 2 michael for awhile...he made me feel alot better about alot of things...he has this way of making my problems just fade away....its undescribable... well nichole called me a skank..i guess someone called there 2day asking john why he had 2 hurt me soo bad and this that and the other thing...and she called bitching at me...but i just got off the phone with her...and i guess everything is ok now....between me and her that is...i already lost someone i really love..i dont wanna lose a good friend 2... no school 4 me 2morrow..i have counciling...well i guess i have alot 2 tell her...i guess im going 2 pretend like things aent as bad as they really are...and i cant tell her all the thoguhts of death i've been having..wouldnt want 2 go back into *recovery* again..... well im out <3 ya michael. Jennifer