i just got done watching thirteen..its a real good movie..i feel like crying...because i know how it is..i know everythign that traci went threw in that movie...the sex the drugs the urge 2 kill yourself...and no matter how hard u try...no1 seems to hear you screaming for help...that movie just proves how much life sucks..and how evil people are...how could someone ever want another human 2 make them feel like there life isnt worth living for? God i just fucking hate people!!! life sucks..thats why people do drugs...to get away from the life they live...to escape their problems...well people like me anyway...i mean there are them people that do heroin and shit..fuck that noise...im fine...i perfer other shit...i guess..who knows? i mean from what i hear...drugs make you feel all the things you never thought possible..for me i think drugs would make me happy...make me feel beautiful...thats gotta be the happiest people....people that are always fucked up..like 24/7...because they dont really have 2 face there problems...cause the only problem they have is where they're gonna get there next high...do u ever think a druggy tries 2 kill themselves over sum caddy gurl shyt...i dont think so...i hate life... the movie was really good though...i really like it...it kinda helps me think that im not the only one goign threw everything im going threw...it makes me feel like im not alone...and thats what i need...i cant be alone...i need to know that im not crazy for the thoughts i have..i cant help the way i am...and no matter how hard i try....i cant change who i am..and how i am..i cant change the way i think...i guess i wish i could....hhhhmmm... he means everything 2 me.... i hate guys... fuck it all.... i dont know if i should be happy that im not alone..or sad because there's nothing really 2 be happy about??? maybe tomorrow i will be happy...for once... I wont let you get to me.... die you ass holes...die... Jennifer<3