somewhere between the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, and the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old friends, the i miss yous, and the i love yous, and what are we doing tonight`s? somewhere between all of the changed and growing and the skipping classes, the studying for tests, and the pretending to be studying for tests, and the downriight not studying for tests, i forgot. ..i forgot what it meant to cry. i forgot that pretending to be happy doesn`t make you happy. i forgot that pretending to be smart doesn`t make you smart. and that pretending to be okay doesn`t make youu okay. i forgot that you can`t just forget the past in fear of our future.. i forgot that you can`t control falling in love.. and that youu can`t make yourself fall in love. i learned.. i learned that i can love.. i learned that it`s okay to mess up. and it`s okay to ask for help.. and it`s okay to feel like crap.. i learned it`s okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day.. that somehow they`ll make it all better. i learned that sometimes the things you want most you can`t have. i learned that the greatest thing about school isn`t going to be who is most popular or going to the parties..not even the hook ups.. it`s the friendships.. which means taking chances. i learned that sometimes the things we forgive and forget are the things which we most need to talk out.. i learned that letters from friends are the most important thing.. and that sending cards to your friends makes youu feel better.. but basically, i just learned that my friends, both old and new, are the most important people to me in the world♥