i have a mate who actually says "lol". why not just laugh. for fucksake. anyway. two things: rachel court first, i was going to do some awesome thing with the scanner so a picture of stuff would come up here, but i havent got around to it. that and my computer is fucked and my missus has a mac, so all is not actually that easy. i was ripped. i was bitter and sad and stuff. rachel trespassed me from her property. it's been years. two or three. wtf. then i got over it, about a day later. i simply dont care anymore, how the hell. i should clarify, sometimes i specify, often not, but "my rachel" and "rachel" are two different entities. "my rachel" exists in my head and is somewhat akin to my dearest samantha in that their thoughts would influence mine, but basically it's just another schitzophrenik manifestation. "rachel" is obviously rachel. remains beloved, but in a much more distant way, used to influence my thoughts and feelings and actions a lot. now, not at all. how terribly sad. so yes, as i say, i'm over it, i dont understand how or why, i simply stopped caring. not like me at all. court: i was recently harrassed to do my civic duty to king and country and sit on the jury at some trial or other. i sent back this letter: "i have work to do my vote is guilty why is a summons to auckland district court being sent to a manukau district address? your system is corrupt defunct and unjust. the name "ministry of justice" is laughable i despise you and everyone else who is part of your taxpayer funded bullshit quit your job and pay our doctors more" the response: "your application to be excused from jury service has been granted on this occaision" if you're ofay with current nz politics and happenings then you will understand most of it, else. meh. anyway. life goes on. payrise. new ute. new ute stuff. new cellphone. old me. hum.