For me, its been a while since I could say, "I'm truly happy." Guess thats just the way things go for me. Always reaching out for the love of another and loving everyone; only to recieve a bitch slap from life as a thank you. Its funny how things work out and its definately ironic for the most part. I hate that everyone I care about doesn't seem to care about me at all (at least in that way). I try my hardest to work to make those I care about happy and am only rejected so that I may go cry in my pitiful little corner of the world and wish I was dead...I only have one question each and every night, "Why me?". I guess I'm not the only one, and to think so would be a selfish and unfair act, but I can't help but wonder if anyone will ever care about my feelings or at least pretend. I guess thats just me being stupid and conceited, but I just need a break. I need love.