I'm actually happy with life for once......I have met the girl of my dreams. How I wish I could see her beautiful face at this moment and comfort her in my arms....Is it love? I don't know what that feels like so I really can't say. If only I could know what its like for once....to have something good. Those are words I often say to myself.....and now that they have come to my aid, to bluntly state, I'm scared shitless. I do enjoy this feeling though. For once.......I am WHOLE.