I remember when I used to look forward to Christmas, but it seems as though all it does now is bring up painful memories. Now here it is just a few more hours and I'm sitting here alone thinking out the one thing I really want and knowing there is no way I will ever get it.But then again that my fault, I had her I just didnt hold on strong enough. I used to say I lived my life without regrets but now I think there maybe one. That I didnt do everything in my power to hold on to her. I let her walk way when she said that leaveing would make her happy but then again even if I had the chance to go back and change it I dont think I would because if being away makes her happy then I guess I should be happy because thats what I wanted. Hey girl I hope you have a Merry Christmas and hope you have everything that you have ever wanted.And truely hope that you are happy. I love you and I miss you!!!!!!!!!!!