Hummmm Been a while sence I have putanything here so I thought I would even though I know noone is reading it but I guess in a way thats a good thing. My thoughts stay just mine that way but it would be nice to talk to peoplle about things . I wish I had someone that I trusted to talk to. I trust so few people and even those people dont really know the real me. I wish I could just be me what I really want to be. I will one day maybe I dont know when Oh well I guess thats all and Blair if you ever do read this. I love you