We took second at our tournament today and played really well. I wish I could be excited about it and out celebrating. I can't believe how stupid I can be sometimes. I can't believe I did that to you. I love you so much. Fuck Andrew. Seriously, fuck him and Cooper and all guys who don't leave girls-with-boyfriends the fuck alone. I want you. All I ever wanted was you I am a fucking piece of scummy-ass shit. When can I see you? I can't live this life without you. Please. I will spend the rest of my life trying to make everything up to you. I just want to be with you. Fuck. I hate myself. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me.