It's high school. all over again. Pretending everything is easy cheesy when I am completely falling apart. Constant buzzing to drown out the thoughts. Any negative emotion met with a "'buzz,' next?"

Buzzing

Dizzy

ZZ

No zz because it's too loud. I can't sleep with all the zz's!

I'm lost. Any sense of direction is dizzied with another buzz. Where am I headed now? Life in the past, present, future... I barely function in the present with the aide of my buzz buffers.

I am so tired. Why can't I sleep forever? I just want to silence my mind. Forget. Sleep.

I lose control of my mind in silence like this.

When will I ever have control?