I can feel it. I am going to die soon. It's this feeling deep inside of me somewhere. Just like.. I can feel it coming.

I'm kind of scared, but not for myself. I know it will upset people. It would just be what I want for myself. I know it's selfish, but it's something for me and only me. More personal than a tattoo because no one will really ever see it inside of me.. but me.

I hate myself. I'm sorry. It is my fault. I just don't want to deal with anything anymore.