written 1•22•05 why my life is this way, i couldn't tell you. why i was born to these people, not sure of that one either. they say i'm so bad and horrible and i should care about things and i need to change things about my attitude or just me period. well, when i was younger i was told not to let people judge you for whatever b/c it doesn't matter what they think. well, they need to listne to their own advice, i know i need to change b/c i'm such a horrible person, oh yes in deed. well, news flash, as if they don't know or can't tell, i care nothing about them or this family and i don't need them. i have my friends and my boyfriend that actually care about me and want me here... and they don't think there's anything wrong wtih me. so, i rather have this family hate me and say i need to change than really do it and lose my friends and boyfriend. they love me for me and i can never thank them enough for it. and a matter a fact even if i did change they would still love me. they don't exspect me to change and don't want me to b/c they like who i am. they say i make them laugh and bring smiles to their faces. they tell me i'm crazy and need help or that i have issues, that's only when i'm hyper tho, and at least they care about me unlike other people. there's nothing left for me here so i'll be out of their hair soon enough and i hope they're happy b/c i'm never coming back. i believe in myself and that's enough to get me out of here. so to all those people who hate me...thanx! ×doodles× (hopeless & lonely)