You know, it must've been really easy for him (louis armstrong) to sing that, i mean, being rich and all....*sigh* so mike and i get into little tiffs everday now. nothing big, which is what gets to me, it's all over nothing! and tonight, he full-out bawled. I mean, streaming tears, sniffling and whatnot. my heart just broke for him. i don't know what to do. i don't know why he got upset over the "damn," i don't know anything. but i love him love him so much. and he loves me to no end. i bought him a huge jug of Arizona Green Tea, and he brought me Gogurt and Toaster Strudels:) I had sooo much fun with him on friday...julius got a gamecube today. and mike played it all day while ju was at work. zelda. and metroid. i had to do lots of notecards for mr kay...didn't finish them all. and i have to read Madame Bovary by tomorrow. so damn. lauren let me streak her hair or highlight, whatever sort of a strawberry blonde thing it's really quite nice and very subtle. the SAT's were so easy. except, the math kicked my ass. i haven't had a math class in two years, so damn. i did quite well on the verbal, i guess is the section. and i need to apply at USF. Florida is the armpit of the UnitedStates. carl . carl keeps popping into my head. and chris is completely out of it. now that i've seen him all affectionate with Lauren, i just, don't want it. haha. not like that i mean, he and lauren are so into this nice little groove, i'm perfectly fine with not having the opportunity to date him. and mike, well, being with mike makes me realize that i DO NOT want to be without him- and yet, seeing as how i feel that, you know- after mike, that's it. there's no one else i could possible want more... there's carl. and not just that i'm in love with him or anything; because i'm not. i just don't want to feel i'd missed out on something. kind of how when vince and i broke up (ouch:)) i didn't (we didn't) want to go through high school having only dated eachother and miss out on that whole diversifying experience that is the world of dating. and being with mike and thinking, wow. Mike is amazing, why would i settle!? scares the hell out of me. the bejesus, if you will. i sort of don't want to know. not this soon, not now! i want to date people. and have fun with it. but i don't want anyone else to have him, either. so i'm just a selfish bitch, really. *sigh* this is so stupid. am i bothering you too much? i bought a razor today, finally. and i left a very long message on Grant's machine. mario lopez hosts some animal planet show...whatever happened to the good ol' AC Slater days, eh? i'm going to watch SnoopDogg, behind the Music, on vh1. i want to make movies. and i want to do cartwheels for hours. and i want to eat lots of fudge brownies. and laugh with Grant. and sing with Lauren. and read with Chris. and talk with Carl. and dance with Mike. and play trivial pursuit. and buy the Simpsons first season DVD, and FamilyGuy, and Futurama. and listen to Vince practice. i want someone to IM me and say, hey, you're intricate. i've always wanted to be called intricate. delicately complicated. daintily complex. once i brought a Kahlua Mudslid to school, by accident- i didn't even think twice about it, i just grabbed something to drink, for school. it was...8th grade. yeah. i was in yearbook class. kenny. vince. chris. poey. vince. vince. chris. vince. vince. jason. vince. j V a I s N o C n E. jason. ryan. ryan. ryan. ryan. mike. mike. mike. chris. mike. mike. carl. m..i...k..