ok...like car said on her thing, justin was flirting with her, and well i am just saying i feel played! if he feels ok enough to flirt with her, then i am just another number on his wall of people he wants to tap! errrrr! so um yeah! i am ready to blow! i am just horrible with relationships...or maybe i just make guys go ew! i dont know what it is about me, but i am ready to hide forever! i am never going to come out again! lol! it would be a good end to my tragic dating life! lol! so anyway i might have a job at big bucks, and well...i am excited, i won't have to worry abou tbeing lonely anymore, since i will be working my two jobs, and would be too busy to notice how alone i really am! it's not even that i want to have a bf to do stuff with, i just want to feel safe, and wanted, but i guess that i am going to have to be patient and wish for it to really be! i am so lonely, and it makes it worse to see everyone else having good relationships! errr! i mean i dont blame them! i couldn't! but i mean i wish that i could be as licky as that...i mean my best relationship ended in tears twice! lol! i think that i'll never learn! i hope no one takes offence for this stuff, but i really need to get it out! and i don't mean to make anyone sad, so i am truely sorry! but i have to be able to say it somehow! lol! i really feel crapy, andi want to lose wieght, but i don't know how. i can't stop eating because i tried it before, and got caught so now my parents ask how much i have ate, and i am the worse liar in the world! lol! i really want people to work out with me, but someone who wont make me feel like shit, aka christine! lol! i want to be pretty! i want to be one of the girls that guys turn their heads for, and not to see how big i look from behind! it make me sad that i am not one of those girls and well i dont know if i'll ever be one either! errr! i am done venting! lol! sorry for this you guys!
don't worry about justin, he sucks ass. i treatend him to day!! ne way, not everyone is happy. u could be like me... ne ways, we'll find u a man who will treat u right. and ur not fat and who turns around to see how fat ppl r? ne ways i would work out with u but ur so far away. if i had my licence i could. by the way r we ok? i said some shitty things to Crystal. did u no? ne ways, running outta letters, c u.
ben
<3 - Sarah
I'm not really sure how to respond. I'd offer to work out with you but I hate doing that with other people. I will support you and help in any way I can though. And I think you're beautiful just as you are. Don't let Justin or Scott or any other guy pull you down just because they can't see that. I don't know if it helps but I used to feel just like that and sometimes I still do. So if you ever need to talk, you know where I am.
-Carla
ben
Anywho, we'll fix yer guy problems by making you a grade A lesbian (sarah can help;) JUST KIDDING DON'T KILL ME). Then every guy will want somma that.
KARL!(KYLE)