so i have a lot of things to be worried about, and well it seems lately that they want to stand out! i am so tired of things! all of the secrets and lies...all of the heartbreak. i never can release any of my anger, because i am too afraid of hurting people. i think i'm done! no more hiding behind a smile! i can't live with all of these lies and secrets. it has come to the point that i have began to believe my own lies! so here it goes! i miss my mom, and i wish she could actually be my mom again, instead of living her life pretending that she doesn't have kids. i am only 16, i still need her to be around. this is probably selfish and childish of me but i want her to be there for me, not anyone else! next! monica is really pissing me off, i can't talk about it yet, but it's gunna be out there soon! so everything else can wait for another date...well really there isn't much else to say...i think that i'm lonely and am in need of something i either can't have or can't find...shanon explains my other problem