not even myself. I think I should die. What about you? I'm thinking hardcore drug overdose, not the wimpy way like before.... Bah who am I kidding myself I could never go through with it. I'm tearing away my emotions enough it may kill off my insides... Hahah... I don't deserve shit. --- Haha, I'm just like my father. I can't make decisions, I don't know myself, I can't trust my own heart, I try to please everyone, I have his hair, his eyes, his blood genes..as much I try to get away from him and act like hes nothing...I'm just like him in so many ways...