Lover: esther, i am sorry for ever hurting you. i am sorry for criticizing you. i love you. i believe i have aroused a sense of resentment towards me in your heart. you are really important to me. i love you a lot. you are the only girl i want to be with. you have so many good qualities. i now see you and your communication with other guys as something good and healthy if we were to have a relationship. i would feel better if i knew exactly what you said to them, then i would not feel jealuse anymore. it would also let you see how exactly i am different. there will never be a girl as good as you in my life. i will never love a girl as much as i love you. my love for you is forevor. i can never explain my love in words, because it is unconditional love. a love with no conditions means i accept you : for who you are and everything you will be. i know i have been very wrong in how bad i hvae treated you, yet you do not deserve to have my angry side. we should not fight. i have searched in me for a long time, you are the girl of my dreams, and i am wrong in my actions. by hurting you i do not correct anything, as i previously thought it would. hurting you and fighting with you only makes you go away a lot quicker. Lover: i am so sorry, i wish i could express this to you. maybe get down on one knee and tell you how much you mean to me, how much i love you, how much i want to be with you, how i never meant to hurt you, how i want to bring nothing but happiness in your life. i have made a giant transition in a period of less than a day, and you have been my inspiration to change. i see defeat or hard times as something to learn from, and i have learned from this. i assume that if i have had been in your situation, i would have been acting the same way. i must see things from your points of view to better analyze what i have done wrong, and what i will stop doing. i do not blame you for everything. you acted the way i probably would have acted under the same circumstances. Lover: you are really beautiful, i would be proud to have you, i know you have the emotions i want in a girl. you are open to receiving love, believing in love, and giving love. i am proud because of my background, for who i am, for what i have become, and proud i found the girl i want to spend my life with, my sould mate. i am a fool for criticizing you, condeemning you, and complaining about things which have to do with you. i am understanding and forgiving. i do not hold any grudges against you. i am working on my self-control. i love you esther. i want you to always know that. to remember that when times are bad. i will always be with you emotionally and spiritually, when i am not with you physically. hold me in your heart and you will always have me when you need me. you can count on me. Lover : i once read "to know all is to forgive all." esther, i want to know everything about you. do not worry about me not loving you. i love you, if you tell me everything, even things i wont like, i will love you more for telling me and risking hurting me, than lie to me. Lover : you are a great person. when i think of you, i think of perfection. you have so little flaws. you are important to me. you will always be. you will be of higher importance in my future. i need a girl to always be by my side. to inspire me and motivate me. i want you to be that girl. i know we live in a harsh world, but you cant change reality. i would want to make your harsh world/life into something great. i want life to be the greatest thing ever to exist, through love. Lov er: i would love to be able to tell you how much i appreciate who you are and what you have done. i dont think i would ever write anything about what i wantto change about you, because i cant think of things to change about you since you are are perfect the way you are. that is why i love you.hurting you is something that has never been called for. something which will never be justified and which i will never forgive myself for. i love you. (4/29/2004 9:43:16 PM): i love you and will never stop trying to get you until i finally have you by my side. my persuit to be with you is my persuit to have ever lasting eternal love. i want to make, if i have not already, any regular moment in your life and time, seem life something magical. you are the best out of all the girls i have known. i have done my best to teach you my morals and thoughts, to make sure you become a better person. i want to be your best freind, lover, boy freind, and maybe even your future husband. i am willing to drop everything to have you, no matter what the circumstances may be. i want to make you happy, to make you smile when your with me or think of me. if you were mine, i would love the whole world to know, and to show you off to everyone. how perfect and beautiful you are. i put you in the center of my universe because that is where you belong these are old conversations with juan he is gone now dont think he is going to come back untill like omg 4 years or something ..... LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: dam lil stronge one you really wanna be stronge!! skater18: just for you skater18: cause i know how you would get Tired after what we will be doing skater18: so i would have to carry you home skater18: don't you think ? LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: "sure juan " LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: lol LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: um your lil crazy banana LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: lol skater18: lol skater18: why do you say that LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: cuz your so stronge!!!!! ---------------------------------------------- LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: well some time i wonder why i like you skater18: and why is it LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: cuz you kool and then your a skater and t hen you have so maything that are difrent from other guys and plus your mexican!!! lol skater18: lol skater18: nicee skater18: perfect LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: i should of not told you skater18: why not skater18: it's good that i know LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: lol LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: ok i think i should go now skater18: i like you as well LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: well i think your play'n around skater18: why would i be playig around skater18: i'm serious skater18: and i'm really happy that you told me that skater18: i like you too ---------------------------------------------- skater18: i love it to tell you the truth i think i may be getting a big crush on you and i don't like you anymore it's more than just that !! it's like i love you skater18: oh shit i was thiking to loud ! ---------------------------------------------- these were save convorsations like 6 months ago i 4 got i had laterz ********************************************** these are convos with javi LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: let me ask you something LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL:if the person you truely love went half across the world would you go after them? Lover: yes i would Lover: yes, i would go after you esther -------------------------------------------- Lover: sos muy perfecta. si sigo peliando con tigo, pienso que perdiria tu amor. no lo quierro perder. soy seloso porque te quierro solo para mi. no quisiera perderte a otro hombre. yo nunca te causara dolor physical. dolor emocional es imposible de parar. todo mundo peleia. sos mi princessa. te quiero dar la mejor vida que has tuvido. Lover: estoy aqui con tigo entre los malos tiempos y los buenos. peliara por ti y diera mi vida para protejerte. ---------------------------------------------- Lover: your the love of my life ---------------------------------------------- this is what he told me ..... 1.Ur different from all the girls I have liked or loved. 2.U have morals & beliefs that r like mine, & which I like. 3.U stay with me through my many mood swings, & through our many fights.4.U got past the physical barrier; u see me and love me for who I am.5.We have not had anything physical between us, yet our love is stronger than people who have even had sex before.6. UR my life and my world. ur everything I live for. I'm lost in love with u.7.U haven't had sex or any major sexual things with any other guy, which is important to me.8.We both want 2 change things about each other, 2 make ourselves perfect for each other and find a medium between our views.9. U r just to your tremendous ....10.U bring perfection into my life. U changed the path I was on. I love u & will never want to lose u. u wont ever be replaced or equaled by any other girl. ---------------------------------------------- (4/7/2004 5:18:42 PM): i cant wait for the one day where i can gaze into your eyes, to tell you how beautiful you are. i cant wait to look at your face then just start kissing you romantically and passionately. the day I can see you crying out of happiness and love. the day i can wake up next to you and see your beautiful face sleeping, just give you a kiss on the forehead and say i love you. one day where i can hold you in my arms and just make any fears you have leave, because you would be safe with me. ----------------------------------------------********************************************** an old convo found about josh HBBB: I LOVE U ESTHER HBBB: dont u wana hear my sexy voice? LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: "sure"lol ( he wanted me to call him i said no! lol) HBBB: im gana look at ur pic ALLLLLL NIGHT! HKBBB: i set u as my BACKROUND LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: =-O LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: dam LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: crazy HBBB: no its fukin hot!!! ********************************************** ok duno why i made this but yeah ....... It was such an awkward moment. All that I could think about was what happened 6 months earlier. When we were talking, I couldn't help but tear up a little. Why are relationships so devastating? I remember the first time we met. I remember the first time we talked on the phone. I remember the first time we kissed. I remember the last time we kissed, maybe because they happened in same second. That's the problem... I remember everything so clearly. I can't get these thoughts and images out of my mind. I feel like I have every word you said to me inscribed on the inside of my head. The memories are so vivid, and they won't leave me alone. The last words from you were sent in a postcard with big letters that meant nothing. You couldn't even sign the right word. Why did you even bother? I always thought we'd stay good friends. You were so important to me. But, now your not. I hate you for what you did. I can't believe I spent more than 2 fucking months waiting for you to care. You lied when you said it. And, I was fucking stupid enough to fall for it. I hope your happy. Because I'm not. iLsk8eRsUrFgirL: you cac head LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: caca* r3TbALLeR05: man r3TbALLeR05: shut ur mouth r3TbALLeR05: !! LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: >:o r3TbALLeR05: pedo r3TbALLeR05: gurlfriend LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: oh LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: lol r3TbALLeR05: vilence isn;t the way 2 my heart LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: no yor pedro r3TbALLeR05: baby gurl its u LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: hahah r3TbALLeR05: violence* r3TbALLeR05: BAby u know i love u r3TbALLeR05: but still LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: wtf r3TbALLeR05: i got 2 let it burn r3TbALLeR05: baby r3TbALLeR05: ! r3TbALLeR05: plz LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: lol r3TbALLeR05: and the way u held my hand LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: lol r3TbALLeR05: so passionitly r3TbALLeR05: baby i need more r3TbALLeR05: thought r3TbALLeR05: plz LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: wtf is wronge with you r3TbALLeR05: baby don;t be shy LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: man go away now LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: !! LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: lol r3TbALLeR05: baby r33TbALLeR05: y u saying that r3TbALLeR05: u know i love u r3TbALLeR05: do u love me? LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: ohhhhhh LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: shut up r3TbALLeR05: yes or no? LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: shut up r3TbALLeR05: baby i need 2 know r3TbALLeR05: becuz if u don't r3TbALLeR05: ill make r3TbALLeR05: u LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: your going on my block list! r3TbALLeR05: just tell me r3TbALLeR05: what i need 2 do r3TbALLeR05: baby r3TbALLeR05: plz don't block me man samuel is weird !!! lolz i duno wuts wronge with him or maybe he does lol naww hahahah n-e-way i dunno why i put that but yeah well um yeah ive been talking to juan more i really liek that cuz the more we talk the more i find out that we have in common and it's like w0w never thoght you would be like this it's like a freind you will never have ........ well it's liek ive known him 4 ever and like he has been their every day well he has but yeah never thoght about it like this well this is a lil stuff liek wut he said and stuff ....... LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: have you ever thoght if you would die wut would happen skater18: yeah skater18: all the time skater18: i have a problem with that skater18: i think about it too much ........................................ skater18: oh ok skater18: you can tell me about it if you would like skater18: i'm opening up to you and if you would liek you can open up to me LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: thanks alot skater18: no prob skater18: i'm here for you LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: you know wut you like the 2nd person that has ever said that skater18: ohyesh skater18: well i'm serious skater18: if you ever want to talk about something skater18: i'm here for you skater18: and if i' m not online skater18: call me skater18: i would o the same but i don't have your number LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: yeah he is just a great freind !!! .............................................. LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: yeah skater18: cool skater18: but yeah skater18: you talk to me about ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING skater18: ok ? LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: ok skater18: it's nice to have someone to talk to skater18: and know that you can trust them and have them listen skater18: i want you to have about with me and me with yo skater18: so if you would like youcan talk to me right now that we have started things off skater18: but if youdon't want to then it's cool LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: i want you to have about with me and me with yo LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: that dont make senswe LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: sense LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: * skater18: oh i meant to say that i want you to have that confidence with me skater18: and i want to have it with you LiLsk8eRsUrFgirL: o alright he seems like ive known him 4 ever thanx 4 been'n their !!!alot!! So I have been friends with this kid for a long time, He is so great...one of the greatest people that I know... well here is how it goes .. if only the rest of the relationship had progressed as woderfully as i thoght it was going . Sure , we had many good times ,but the true meaning of the word "relationship" was missing. He never seemed to notice , but i was miserable for much of the time . it's hard to put a fingure on what exactly bothered me. Mostly, it was a whole lot of little things .... Yet , it did not occur to me to break up with him... Finally , i couldn't take it any longer and i became honest with myself. I wanted the relationship to improve or I wanted to move on. so it's all over now . And i need to move on . *********************** Hosiers24: i mean like what do you do wrong? what are your negatives? xB r0ken Byu xox: i dont know Hosiers24: see bc you dotn have any Hosiers24: you're the girl i want Hosiers24: but then youre too good for me bc you dont deserve me blah blah blah. Hosiers24: shes not the best girl on the planet though Hosiers24: you are... xB r0ken Byu xox: ahh your giving me chills Hosiers24: if you only knew da freind of mine :-) ************************* Life is too short...soo kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truely, and forgive quickly ************************** Hosiers2244: have i told you that i loved you misterhendrix: love you! BrokenLover: i still love you and it kills me Fuck you javi! xVOLxCOM119x:mY LOVE! Hoosiers2244: whatever baby ************************ summertime brought me back to thinking you were mine, all those times. We laid it down and left it all behind, we were blind. We could ride, Take my hand and watch the world go by. Laugh or cry, well we need to try, get off the line, time to fly Go on ahead and let it fade away. No looking back you know the past will stay. It's you and me, we could get out of here. Jump in and go and we could drive for years. We could feel alive... here we are, windows down we see a falling star. Stop the car. Waiting for nothing but our beating hearts, going far. So feel the air, take the map and point to anywhere. I don't care. Fingers through your hair, the sky I've seen blue and green. Drivin away, just drive away, leaving it all behind *********************** misterhendrix: OMG this one guy james I met him dancing, he has a huge six pack of beer ******************** mrhendrix: I wanna be mr. rape again ---------------------------------------- mrhendrix: *slaps own ass* -------------------------------- hahah your awesome :-P mrhendrix: in the ass? =( XBr0kenByu: yea you gotta love it ****************** xmisterhendrix: love you! ;-) random things :: Hosiers2244: youre gorgeous Hosiers2244: youre so pretty Hoosiers2244: i love you ********************** misterhendrix: Rex and Esther! *wrong* misterhendrix: Jake and Esther! *ding ding* we gotta winner =D misterhendrix: Javi and Esther *fuck you javi* lol ************************ ********************** ****************** ***********************