lxxii* Seventy Two

Feeling: beaming
i love saturday mornings, especially here cuz they're so bloody sunny!! So yes this is entry #72 and im sitting in my bed right now on a beautifully sunny saturday morning and the sun is just *Beaming* into my room so im beaming aswell. The kindling is burning! hehe half of u dont know what that means and u think u know half of what it actually means. yes i am trying to confuse u, it doesnt matter what it means, it just means that i'm very happy this morning :) so yeah the taste of last night isnt leaving my mouth so its kind tasting weird, im very tempted to go and get the bottle of coke off my desk, but i'm rather comfortable in my big duvet on my bed right now. I've got most of my business ISU left to write today and then i really wanna get outside and throw around the baseball or football cuz i brought both :D i miss mtl tho sometimes, miss not being able to hang out with brian and everyone else. i called him the other day, it was good to hear his voice. anywho things are still going great here tho, got some great friends here and cass :) is awesome too hehe. hmmm i dont know what else to say, this entry is more of a catchup entry then anything so yeah take care everyone, and comment so i know that there are actually ppl still reading this stuff. Switzerland is *sick*
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there's the thing though, there ARENT plenty more fish... not ones like him though. shit like... he opened me up to an entire new type of person. now i know a guy can actually be fucking intelligent, can carry on a conversation for hours, can make me more comfortable with him than i've ever been with another person (even addison after a year and a half). i mean... now that i know what that feeling is and it's gone, i'm never gonna be able to go..
*ctd*
... back to these lazy stupid half-assed guys. shit, i actually thought of pretty much every single possible more-than-friend-material guy i know, and i know none of them are as good as he was
and its not even as if i want to go and get into another relationship or anything right now, but when i do... i wont be able to. and now that i know how someone like that can affect me, im not going to be the same without him.
i talk a lot.
xxx