once again it amuses me, but only a sad amusement this time, to observe how no one really cares if they get what they want; what i allow myself to infer from my observations is that, for a lot of people, if their choice in the political election wins, they won't be completely satisfied until the opposite party admits they were right all along. yeah, well i'm pretty much freaking out in a non-emotional way but more of a physical way, a combination (i guess) of sleep deprivation, the fact that my little heater is broken and the furnace is on, a weird day, and nervous anticipation-the climax. i think im going to go ask my mother for some kind of nice little pill that will make me stop violently shaking and doing the jimmy foot[where you cannot seem to stop pumping your leg up and down]. maybe tylenol PM, or maybe some kind of sedative? i understand she takes medicine for nerves. hm...