So seems like everyone is swimming in shit. trying to keep our heads up above the shit swirling up to our mouthes and nostrils... mmm. feces... so what is happening with me? i feel like a good cry. :) My problem has always been my problem. I wear my heart on my sleeve. everyone can see it. everyone can pull on it. everyone can touch it. and everyone can tear it up. im too damn trusting. too damn forgiving.. i feel like someone or something else is inside of me punching and twisting and making me sick. I feel like i have an empty inside. i dont know what i have done to feel like this. i dont know what i have done to change everyones mind about me... im lost just as lost as anyone else. i am confused. i am scared. i hate not knowing what is gonna happen to me. some people have asked me where i see myself in ten years. and i just sit there. i know where i want to be. but i dont know how that will happen. cuz i dont know where i am right now. i hate this.