Jamie, I know what you are upset with me about for the most part. And trust me I'm still not ready to talk to you about it either! Other wise I would have talked to you about it to your face in the beginning. I know I lied to you and that was definately not worth it to me. I love you with all my heart and so much more and the things and people I lied to you about were not worth it. Jamie you are more then family to me you are my best friend. Nobody, not Matt, Bob, Sam, Travis, or anybody could ever take that feeling I have for you away from me. I know I fucked up but I am really trying to change myself.. I don't want to lie to you anymore.. and I don't want to have anything to lie to you about. There are things I could have told you about that I couldn't have told some people but I was so scared about how you would look at your little cousin so much differently. I have really fucked up my life a lot.. but I want to change it and I want me to seem like your little baby cousin again who can do no wrong. I love you with all my heart. Love a.a.f. Keska Lynn Blessing of the day: honesty