It’s Sunday night. I didn’t make it to church, I didn’t make it to the beach with Allegra, I didn’t make it to dinner with my friends... I’m not bothered about it as I usually would be. I needed time really… Just nice good ol leisure time. I missed it. With school, work, night school, and having time with friends to catch up, I never got the change to do absolutely nothing productive. It’s nice and another reason why this was exceptionally nice was me given the chance to talk allll day on the phone with Chad. He’s so special. I fell asleep, a deep sleep with him on the phone last night. it was cute i guess.. He didn’t hang up. He sat there and listened to me sleep. As if that couldn’t of been more perfect. i always catch myself falling so deeply in love with him. I’ve never felt this close to anyone ever. It only scares me at this point. A lot. I don’t want to think of the thought of him leaving me. i would just die ... If I don't see him anytime soon, I don't know what will happen