yes, that's right! i am once angain spiralling down into the great, and very familiar void that is depression... crying spells at least twice a day... thoughts of suicide... and guess what!! NO ONE CARING ENOUGH TO EVEN FUCKING TALK TO ME!!! yup, i get to go through this one alone, completely alone... yay!!! *begins crying again* every other time that i was going trough depression, i at least had a couple people to talk to or "comfort" me... but this time,nope.... the one person i hoped would be by me has deserted me... (at least for the time being...) it's funny, because in the past, whenever i told one of my boyfriends that i was going back into depression, they would want to hold me, or at least talk to me... but not this time!!! but i know that he is having sme problems of his own... but silly me, i thought that when you are in a relationship the other person is suppose to be there for you... if he would give me the chance, i would be there for him... but i am giving him his space that he asked for.... it just kinda sucks that right when he wants space, i need someone here... i thought about cheating on him, but i really do love him too much... *sobs worsen* i just wish that i could talk to him, he's always so sweet, and always makes me feel a lot better... damn it.. i'm in english class and the teacher is looking at me funny beacuse i'm crying.... AGAIN!!! (third time in this class this year....) anyway.. i'll update you either over the weekend or on monday....