i had the most amazing theropy session today. i learned so much. but my step dad made me cry. a lot. it was about blake. it was horrible. why the fuck do even care? i didn't. but i do. i hate being like this. i got the new gwen stefani CD. thats pretty rad eh? she is such a thug. lol, not. the members of Cold Turkey have a surprise for me. i am scared. and excited. i had a great time in new york. the shopping was rad and the $3 sunglasses were far out.hah. and i just forgot about everything that has been bothering me. and i felt so good. then blake came over yesterday and gave me a ring. its so nice. i love him so much. i love this. but i hate this. damn.