Is it possible to still like someone even though they broke your heart? I'm so confuzzled right now its not even freaking funny. I hate him, but I still like him. God I need mental help. Possibly a straight jacket. Usually this kinda stuff. Heart break and such would put me back into old habits. Hell knows the thing with Armok did that to me. I dont know why this stuff effects me so much. I mean I should seriously be used to it right now. But I cant get over him. I miss him right now and I hate it. Every moment of missing Brandon hurts so much. UGH I want to stop this. The pain, the heart break all of it! Sometimes I want my blade back but I refuse to be thrown back into that and I dont know how much I can take. It all piles up. Death, Heart break, pain, school, sports, all of it. I just need my friends. All of em. Shadow Clan and Real Life. I dont know why I seperate the groups... The SC are just as important as Samantha, Amanda and Roxie. I need to do something. I hate sitting around and doing nothing. I've been scratching at my wrists lately. It scares me. I wish I could talk to someone about it. But I'll end back up in Kolob Canyon and I dont want to go back there. That would be way too much.