I went to the party, the funeral, and the beach trip. I still feel like shit. I'm tired, my grades are slipping and everythings going wrong. I'm hating my life right now. Worns stupid ass postponed the Shadow Clan Revamped start up. Tomorrow is Sams RP beginning. Plus I have a bunch of weekend homework. A football game in which I have to cheer at cause Skye signed me up for cheerleading without my permission. My boss wants me to work double shifts too... I've been cutting as of late... a lot... Only Jake knows. I havent told anyone else cause I know that they'll tell my parents and my parents will ship me off to Kolob Canyon at a moments notice. I dont want to go back there. *sighs* All this stuff wont end. No matter what I do. Brandon and I are on better terms now. Its not as bad as it was before. I'm going with Caleb to the dance in a week. It might actually be fun. Then I have a bunch of stuff to plan out. Skye, Alex, Caleb and I went camping. My mom let me skip school. I carried the casket at my cousins funeral. And now, I'm just tired.