I went to the dance. It was fun. But while I was there, I realized something... I need help... Serious help. I went into the bathroom and took out my blade without even realizing it. I'm telling my mom in about a week and a half. Maybe sooner. So, if I dont come back for a bit, you all will know why... I cant keep doing this. I'm going back to Kolob Canyon. Its the only thing that'll help me at this point. I cant stop and its a continuous downward spiral. I took the blood from my wrists and wrote on the girls bathroom wall. No one knows it was me. And no one at school ever will. So, pray that Kolob Canyon helps me. Cause, this might be goodbye for awhile...