last night was insane... well first of all the music banquet (which i planned by myself) was last night. and it actually turned out to be suprisingly well. so im pretty proud of myself for putting it all together in such a little amount of time. i think i seriously almost had like a stroak like 146547843 times last night. i was stressing about making sure everything was done and taken care of and stuff. but like i said all went well- and i actually had alot of fun. i didnt stay for the entire thing but the parts that i stayed for were nice. and this sounds totally weird but i think that i realized yesterday that i have more friends then i actually thought that i did. haha- well seeing that the banquet turned out well- i had to go out and celebrate. i went to rychelles with susan and old zane was there. haha- fun times right there. we played a good deal of drinking games with zane who was shit-faced the entire time. but the rest of us had no room to talk. i havent drank that much in forever. i was so sick last night and then i just like passed out which sucked. but overall it was worth it and it was extremely fun. i looove my partying friennds. we know how to have a good time. once again i had to be home wicked early this morning... and once again i came home hungover. and this hangover was worse than the last one. my eyes were bloodshot so i had to like wear my sunglasses when i first got here and then i had to put the good old visene drop things in my eyes. and after that they were fine. i just got in the shower and got ready and no one said anything. i felt terrible all day... i had the worst headache and my stomach wasnt feeling the greatest- not to mention ive been beyond tired lately- but i just played it cool and acted like i was fine so no one thought anything. but i honestly think that there retarded here because like everytime i go to shelles i come home like that. haha. well today i had to be home to go to my moms work picnic- and all though i didnt feel the greatest today- it was actually really fun. we didnt know anyone there and like my mom works in the main office of a publishing warehouse- so the majority of the people that work there are scumbags- so we just did whatever we wanted and didnt care what anyone thought. haha- we seriously won like some random little prize things from like 5 year old games but it was rather fun. we had lj with us this weekend and so he went and we basically just played all the games with him and stuff and did what he wanted to do. the day that i thought was going to be terrible actually turned out to be again suprisingly well. well something thats not suprisingly well is this keishelle situation. ahh- so not cool. i asked her to call me like 14327892 times today and then i called her like 14732894 times and stuff and its now 10 and i still never heard anything from her. i dont know whats happening with our friendship but its not good :/ and i dont know what to do. i know that me opening my drunk-ass mouth last night wasnt good. right after i typed and sent all that shit i was like wow i shouldnt have said that. but usually when im drunk i can actually just say what i need to say and im not scared about what other people are going to think or say and i just say whats bothering me and whats on my mind. so i dont know if me saying something was a dumbass mistake on my part or a good thing. probably a dumbass mistake. and i almost forgot... apparently there are some people out there who think im smarter than i actually am and that im a better leader than i really am. i got like this really formal invitation thing in the mail and apparently i was nominated to go to the new york state youth leadership forum on law. but its like a week long in washington dc and it costs like $1400 to go. soo i dont see that one happening. haha- but i had to add that part in because it just made me feel smart and important when i got that in the mail today. well tomorrow we have to get together with the family for "fathers day" which is deffinitly not cooool. and AGAIN i have to get up early- not happy about it at all. i dont even remember the last time i slept in. well i guess that the only parties tonight are in the middle of no where- so there will be no going out tonight because i wont get home until like five and i have to up at seven. so i think im going to go and try to get more that three hours of sleep in one night. adiooos biootcches.