last night was terrible. and nothing was really solved? i dont know. why do things have to be so confusing. why cant things just be simple for once. been having thoughts about him again. we talked for like 2 seconds last night but then i never really answered him and he signed off. i wish that things would be so different then they are right now. but ohh well. anyways... today lance (the boyfriend to my madre) got my wireless hooked up. its honestly been like sitting in a box and we tried it like one time- it didnt work and we never tried it again. but he called the company and got everything working now. so now i can be on the computer whenever and not have to worry about people making me get off or people getting annoyed because they need to get on or whatever. so that put me in a good mood. then today i went and checked my grades- well the ones that have been posted so far- and ive passed everything... so that made me very happy. one more test tomorrow- chemistry. its not going to be good whatsoever. i honestly dont understand anything on there and im just hoping to pass- i dont even care what my grade is as long as its passing. but then as i was in a good mood from passing all my finals and regents- i looked online at my SAT scores. not good at all. im deffinitly taking those again. its sad when like the most retarded person in our school gets a better grade than i did. well tonight im going to stay home and just hang out. the real world austin starts tonight and im like obsessed with the real world-- i loooove that show and like mtv in general. what can i say im a loooser. so im probably going to be watching that for a good chunk of the night. tomorrow night there might be a small gathering at rychelles house? well thats what she said a few days ago- and that would be awesome. i feel one being needed but then thursday morning i have to babysit wicked early so im not sure what im going to be able to do just yet. well i think our pizza might be here. plus there like 156485456 people talking to me and its getting way to confusing to write in here and talk at the same time. maybe more updates tonight? latter kiddds.