so earlier when i said that tonight was going to be amazing... yepp well that was a lie. right now im really pissed the fuck off at that guy that i know. he really fucked up what was going to be an amazing night. and on top of it he still has my fucking movie-- and i probably wont see him until myabe next weekend? and so yeahh- im gonna have about $20 in late fees for that one fucking movie. but anyway im really irritated right now because it could have been so simple... all he had to say was yes i want you to come over or no not tonight. if it was yes then i could have stayed where i was at and came over when i was ready but if it was no then i would have to leave when my ride was leaving. so instead of just answering the phone or texting me back-- he doesnt answer... and i cant just be stranded in binghamton for the night so i had to leave when brandon was leaving. and because he was taking brenda home (who had to be home at 1) then i had to leave with them. so no seeing that guy that i know tonight unless he wants to come and get me or pay for a cab and i dont see that happening. soo yeah now not only will i not get to see him until probably next weekend-- making it two weeks since ive seen him-- i didnt get to get my love on tonight which makes me really pissed. ook-- enough bitching. anyone who reads this can already tell how pissed i am and me going on about it wont change anything. so i guess thats really all-- ohh and by the way im not even fucked up and i havent gotten fucked up since last friday... so over a week? yeahh this shit fucking sucks and right now i really cant wait to be out of here. i really cant fuck with any of this bullshit right now.