Well today I don't know I just don't feel right for some reason. I have started looking at myself and I really don't know what to do with my life right now. There's so much I want to have before I go off into the Navy on August but I really don't know. Like I really want to have a real girlfriend. What do I mean by "real" you are probably wondering. Well I mean one who shares the same feelings for me as I would for her. I want a girlfriend that I could be happy with, and could come back to when I get off time in the Navy. I don't know seeing how much time I have before has just got mw questioning you could say. I have a lot of great friends but I hardly ever open up to people that I know. There has only been one person I have ever opened up to, and after we broke up I cut like almost all contact off from her. That was probably one of the greatest times in my life was going out with her, I've never before felt like that for someone. Now I see how much of an ass I have been towards her and I'm disgusted in myself. Haha I still keep the bracelet she made for me in my pocket. There is another girl who actually makes me feels great when I see her. But I don’t know? I really don't like to make the first move into a serious relationship. I may flirt a lot but if I start to think of her as something that could be serious, I hate making the first move unless I am like 100% certain it will work out. I hate feeling like this not knowing what to do, not sure of my future. Well enough typing for now. Have Fun! SeE~yAh 4 now! ~John~