Ok so I'm so lost of late! I am now out of the Navy because I fucked up my ankle... Debra and I broke up becuase well the distance was the main factor her being in Italy and me being her in MN so yeah... I still miss her and it wreaked my relationships to date... I went through TEC wich for some reason sucked big time but I did meet a beautiful girl named Sarah. Everything was going great until I realized that I was really starting to fall for her, and then I did the dumbest thing ever and broke up with her, and I guess I really broke her heart. I feel so aweful because that was the last thing I wanted to do to her. Then I started dating Erica and well I've broken up with her twice now and she says she's never felt like this for someone before. Why do girls keep falling in love with me as of late??? After Debra I don't know if I will ever again find true love, or even pursue it. I hate my job I'm working at this gay ass gas station and I know I can be doing better!!! I still haven't talked to my mother the bitch. That's a whole nother entry later sometime! I guess I've been pushing one of my best friends away really bad and I didn't even realize I was doing it... Ok I'm looking for love but when I start to find it I run ever since Debra, I loved her soo much it still hurts. Now I'm sick of where I am now and am thinking of taking off and pursueing my music career. Thaks for listening Later Dayz! ~John