i didnt sleep well last night. at 5:30 this morning i watched whatever was on tv. its now 7:30, and rosha is expected to be here around 8:00 - 9:00. i talked with mike last night, more like i talked and he yelled. asking me what was wrong and why i have changed so much. him and jay are talking about me, he says cause they're "concerned" about me..pfft..he also told me, that alisha, rosha, and nakita also know i've "changed". so he has been talking to them about it. they dont need to get involved..and fuck alisha. she never talks to me anymore we were best friends since grade 1 i moved away for a year we still were with eachother constantly, now she has a boyfriend, she doesnt need me anymore, so fuck her..she has no idea whats going on. and the only way she would is if mike filled her in, which he did. cause hes always mad at me. so im sure they had a good conversation on talking behind jamis back..thinking she wouldnt find out. but i did. i have not changed. i find that an insult, in a way. it must be a bad change. mike knows im depressed, but he yells at me telling me to tell him whats wrong, when i dont even know and i told him that a bunch of times last night but he kept on yelling. i cant take it..everyone should just fuck off