i went to the doctor today. my mom made me an appointment cause i've been sick for atleast a month now. i can't sleep either, so yaa..today i went to the doctor, my mom was in the room..he was asking me all of these questions cause i haven't been to the doctors in a loooooong time. so ya, i told him what was wrong, and he told me i was probably depressed, and he took my blood and all that jazz. and then when he was telling me that i'm depressed, (mom being right there..so it was awkward) he asked me how i felt sometimes and blah blah blah then he was like have you ever thought of suicide or hurting yourself in any way. i waited for a bit..looking at the wall..like 30 seconds..and i said no. i lied. i don't think theres a day where i don't think of it. fucking cunt. i should have just told him the truth, i want help, i want to be happy. but my mom..she was sitting right there..and i didn't want her to ask me any questions at home. so he said he might put me on pills or something..i need to go back soon.