okay don't mention one of my exes especially when you already know that i am sensitive about the subject still!! AHH!! Why do I find myself reverting back to this diary---I remember no one really knows about it--cept people miles away!! I should have someone I run and tell and i did but not anymore..he hates me now. I want a man...I want one so bad right now it's not funny. I want one that will be there for me..that I feel comfortable around and can be me. I found one...but he doesn't feel comfortable around me. Which I guess i respect but it sucks. AHHAAHHHHHHHH Why do I hurt so bad, still after 8 months of being torn to shreds and my heart thrown against the wall I hurt. I don't have emotional pain it is now physical--the nerves on my back are tingling!