i have seen three of my best friends in the past twentyfourhours. and it was great. uhLAWNuh and Sare-Uh were staying at Alyssa's and i had them sleep over last night. i had fun and thought it went a lot better than it could have. cahlee was there as well...and they all feel the same way about eachother. cahlee doesnt think they like her and they dont think she likes them. i dont think thats the case at all. i think they haven't gotten to know each other...and that i regret. her parents stayed for an evening meal of fettucine alfredo and olive graden salad...delice, girls...anyways and i guess they were giving sarah and alana looks, whic made them uncomfortable and my apologies to alana and sarah for that. and im sure they didnt do it on purpose they're not really like that.. sare-uh i think felt like...the outsider...which..yeah, i felt the same way...at times i felt like she'd rather be with madi like when we went shopping, we were supposed to stick together..but we split up...sarah madi and jenny and then me n alana and laney n bailey...they went to like hollister and american eagle...we dont fit in there adn definately do not feel comfotable there. we would rather be at hottopic...or ragstock...but sarah told madi she felt left out...really, i felt left out..i mean, sarah, one of my best friends, and my sister have matching underwear...like five pairs...and i have none...and really, i love shopping with sarah...and alana...i think for me, this weekend was definately fun, but tough. i dont want to seem like a whiner but...its hard for me to see my friends. so many memories, so hard to let go. and i know i dont act normal...like...uncomfortable. and its not easy for me...i know you're probably like....what? but...moving sucks.everytime i go there...its like...i pack up and start again at home. i need to settle here...sometimes i wonder if i disconnect myself from EVERYTHING down there...and by everything i mean phone, computer...tough, i know. but...would it help me? i am, oh so lonely. and...seeing my friends...oh, it hurts, it cuts...not literally. but it hurts.