i walk into this new school of twenty two hundred kids each day and look at all the people, though i know i havent seen them all. I look at them, and i feel as if im invisible, maybe even nonexsistant. at times, i definately think if i were in willmar what would i be doing? and then i remember i'm the only one that left, they're all still there and they get to see each other EVERYDAY. and i see them pretty much next to never. or, hell, i pretty much never get phone calls from them, ya know, do they even really miss me... and now im afraid i've lost it...lost contact with the Fab Five. No, i take that back. Joanna and Carlee i still converse with like at least twice a week, which ya know is nice. but, well, maybe im kidding myself, i love them all don't get me wrong, but even my friends not in the fab five..how close were we when i lived there? pretty dern close i thought. was i wrong? is it wrong of me to be questioning my friendships with my best friends? or even my new friends im doing it now too. i mean they're really nice but theyre all into anime and stuff...and im not...really...i mean id rather go to a concert than read an anime book, and i have yet to find a friend who feels the same. and its going to be hard to deal with but i really do hope i find one because, i cant just keep taking my sister, hell, she blew me off today for her new friends, even though last night we were going to go to the sivlerline concert. and you know what? i didnt get to go...well, i was going to because after school i called alyssa and she was like yeah i can an wanna go so i was lik okay and they she got her saddle and ditched me, which i dont blame her for. so instead i ended up taking a seven hour nap...yeah.