Yeah, so its the last day of this years so i said hey what the hell ill write im not sure how to explain everything that is going on. when i dont even know most of the things causing my misery Tonight/soon ppl will arrive and we shall put on our smiles and eat.im so exctited.the food is the shit =) im talkin about crab legs, clams, desert...everything in between and more. its great Tomarrow is sunday i must go back to school tuesday..i want to be with nick tomarow but im not sure what the hell is going on cause i cant leave here until the "guests" are gone its total bullshit. im kicking them out at noon not a second later..heh yeah i wish. i just want to spend time with the love of my life..he who makes me happy.. Blah im not sure what else to tell you guys. but then again im just kinda..who knows what am i so afraid of? what causes this misery of mine whateever it is..its killing me