well. one more binge. one more time. and i went on for 2 days straight. reyll kill me eventually. if he happens to notice. or did notice. i ended up calling out. in the end im glad i did because i was fucked up. if i wouldve went in. it wouldnt have been good. not the best idea. so at least i did that. no more drinking is allowed. id like to actually see how long i can make that last. for real. this. time. repeat. again. well i just cant give up on giving up booze. that wouldnt make much sense. its already may. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.