im in such a werid mood today... last night too. i just dont know what to think about everything that has happened lately, and all the mixed messages im getting from everyone have been leaving me really confused. and because of that ive been all paranoid about what people think of me which is so against my nature its not even funny. im not sure if i like grade eleven which really sucks because when i was little i was SO excited to be sixteen years old... nothing just seems to be working out the way i want it to. lately i feel like im in grade 8 again before i grew out of the trendy insecurity. ive just been so antisocial and weird... and ill get upset about not talking to like aquaintances and stuff and school when really its just my fault for not putting myself out there and being all quiet and weird- AGAINNNN so out of my character. hmmm. i dont know why i am so moody this weekend. maybe i just need this time alone and because i havent spent time alone in so long im not sure what to do with it. im glad i didnt go to this party in acadia last night though because i heard it was really gay and im sure it would have just put my mood off even more. i really really really want to move. to california or someplace warm and fun like that. and just get a break from whatever it is im feeling right now. bahhh!