im in such a weird mood lately... like i have had the worst week ever but for no apparent reason. i just hate it. im so ridiculously stressed out and i probably cant do anything this weekend since i turned down going out tonight because im so desperate for sleep. im so exausted. and i feel so weird lately... i have been like estranging myself from everyone. i feel like ive lowerd all of my friendships this year minus maybe one or two to aquaintances, which usually i like, but right now its just making me feel so inexplicably strange. i dont feel like myself... and im so upset because i dont really think i like grade 11... and when i was little i was so excited for this year because i always thought it would be the best ever. i dont even know what to think. i want to move somewhere that i dont know anyone and just start over. ive just been in such a bad mood lately and i know its affecting the people around me. and it hurts that a couple people that i once really cared about dont even care at all that we dont talk anymore- if anything they seem happy about it? i dont know. i need to go for a walk and then go to bed. and then drama at 8:30 tommorrow morning! AWESOME!