MY IPOD IS FINALLY BACK FROM THE REPAIIRRR SHOP YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYAYAYAYAYAYYYY im glad to finally have my life back, because without it i was not functioning. this week was fucking brutal. i am so burnt out from my AP exams... every morning this week has been HELL. i just need a day to myself. one day. but i cant skip any more school. especially since next week i will be skipping TWO DAYS to go sbing. jeeez louise. i cant function right now, and i feel like i have lost all social skills. it might be the astrology or something. and also in the past couple weeks i have suddenly started to suffer from low self esteem... something that ive never really had, because ive always been sure that im at least good at SOME things. but i just feel sooo unattractive and.. i guess invisible right now. im not even sure why. but it sucks ass. ive basically just come to accept that boys just dont seem to like me? something about me seems to turn them off and i just wish i knew what it is. this past year they all just seem to see me as nothing, and i always felt like i had something to offer and was never sure why this is, but recently ive just realized that i really just dont have anything to offer? i wonder if i will ever have a boyfriend... i mean up till now i just havent wanted one... but lately i have, because i really want the experience at least? but its not like thats about to happen... im good at a lot of things and i know that, but boys just arent one of them. maybe its because i dont know how to flirt... i dont know what is wrong with me. eeck... i dunno. i just wish soooo bad i had a better sense of self... im going to go read.