i dont know what blasphemous means. hi. its mid christmas break. and this whole break has been really dissapointing and boring. new years was blah. but then again, new years is so overrated... i think i had too high of hopes. i dont know. i want some things that just dont seem to be in the cards for me. and by that i mean things that a lot of people take for granted. on a brighter note, christmas was really good. i got some cute stuff, best of all a video ipod. but more than that i liked christmas day because me and my brother drove back from st. albert (which was good, i cant take much of some of those cousins) and came to see the mcneill cousins, which of course, are basically my brothers and sisters. a few couldnt make it but it was still nice to be with everyone. and then yvonne and i saw eachother, which was also nice. im so proud of her and her new career, its crazy how successful she has been in a matter of months... from never having a job to being a real estate agent in a firm... i think thats pretty admirable. me and her wound up parking and talking for hours and i think for the first time ever being totally honest... about everything but mainly about our feelings toward my dad. i mean he can be a great guy, but i am so fucking sick of his bs and his preaching. he needs to stop putting himself on a pedistol and bragging about himself while tearing other people to shreds. he thinks hes the freaking dali lama. gawwwwwd! anyways. im excited for next semester and school, as weird as that sounds. just because i am ready to make some MAJOR changes. im waiting on a call though so im off. happy holidays!