so this weekend was pretty fun. i wish i could have gone to the party on friday, but i had fun even though i couldnt. for part of this weekend i was in a really weird mood where i was kind of an idiot, but i grew out of it by sunday. i didnt do any homework again though which is retarted because im getting more and more behind as we speak. but lately i just dont care anymore. which is kind of retarted of me? im sick of drinking. i hate how everyone seems to need alcohol to have a fun time. i dont understand why pot is illegal and alcohol isnt... like wouldnt it make more sense the other way around? people dont act different when they are high... and with alcohol we like become different people. which can be fun and everything, but lately its gotten quite repundant. im excited for next semester. i have a feeling it will be a lot better- less stressed, and more fun. and i hate not just living in the moment, but i cant help being excited for it. and besides, christmas is soon. and i will obviously not be in a weird mood during christmas because that is impossible. i love the holidays. they make me feel like me again. anyways, maybe i should attempt a little social. love love love