This is Wade, again. And it will most likely be my last posting here as this is Raven's diary and I never meant to take it over. But she doesn't mind that I post here...she even encouraged me to. But my last entry..."Dear Raven"...was just a confusing mess of words on my part. I read her earlier entries and felt confused and scared. As if I was reading a different side of Raven. But she got back from Orlando on Friday and she called around noon where we assured one another of our feelings, thoughts, and our wants the entire day. And me and her were definetly on the same level. When we spoke...she practically kept me at attention listening to how she felt about me and it warmed every part of my heart. And in every way was she convincing...as she always is. But as you could see from my last entry...I'm somewhat paranoid of deceit. And it's something I'd never have a heart to do. Especially with family matters of mine in the past. And so, my feelings for Raven were fighting the bad images and the thoughts that arose from those entries but were surely taken away when me and Raven spoke. So, everything between me and Raven are completely fine. Me and her are in the type of relationship where we can talk about anything and are not afraid to display or share our affections or feelings for one another. She's the kind of girl I had been looking for...but she was directly under my nose. Always there...always in the back of my mind. I can surely see myself having a future with her. My feelings are that deep and promising and in no way would I give her up. Raven is the one girl I've ever felt the strongest for...and being that guy for her is one of the most wonderful feelings I've felt. I love you Raven. And now, to Jessica, I understand you designed her diary here somewhat and apologize if I changed a few of the images around. The ones that are on here now are of me and her during the 4th of July weekend when she was here at the beach. It's my favorite shot of Raven...but you don't see me too well. But the meaning of the photo is the best thing about it. And Charles, whether you have feelings left for Raven or not, I can assure you that I will never hurt her and neither do I have any intentions of doing so. And that is not a throw at you at all. I just want her friends to know that I am a legit guy. It's a promise I know I can keep. And Raven, as you read this, thank you. Thanks for being the most caring girl in my life. If there were any holes in my heart...you have helped fill them in. And I will talk to you soon, lovergirl. Love, ~Wade P.S. I thought I'd add that me and Raven met during a game of sandlot football. She was my next door neighbor and it was about 5 years ago when I was quarterback and she was receiver that we began to know each other. And after 3 years of being separated, breaking up then due to the two of us moving, we've learned, matured, and grown into a new relationship. And it's all been worth it.