I feel totally tierd and i have way to much on my mind... i really don't want to go to my dad's... and the only reason i can think of... because i don't want the emotion that will come with hearing that sickining voice!!! i can't stand her... but i am so glad i haven't seen her for this long!! ... no offfense... to any step-moms... this one i find partiularly... well... annoying.. she is not my mother ... and it seems like she wants to be... it makes me nuts!!!!!!! well... i need to move on... u know... from that horrible subject... tomorrow is the homecoming game and dance... for some reason i don't feel very exicted and i don't know why. i guess this whole week has just been so draining!! I hate history!! and i do not want to do that assignment... and if we get a grade on it... mine is an F... i answered 2 out of the 19 or so that there were... i just don't want to read about... which i already did... talk about... which we did some of that... or answer questions about...(2)... a subject called "the black death"... is that not just a bit depressing??? i mean... really... i would rather read a really good book that... is also true... but i can't stop reading it!!! it's just soosoooooossooooooo good!!!!! I suppose things with me and Kelsie are okay... i think it helps with my homework alot... not talking on the phone.. yet ... i miss her phone calls... i just feel so lonely without talkin gto her on the phone... but.. i can't get back into that habit!!! :*( I really should get off here... it's past the bed time i set for myself ... not the "10 o'clock" bedtime that eric was talking about... as far as i know... my mom never gave me a bed time.. and Eric.. is not the boss of me... he is not my dad... ......later gator